He Saw A Man Named Matthew

Change the sinners to the righteous

How crazy is the modern world! The commandments are not followed. No one wants to be labeled a sinner. Everything is either justified, rationalized, or somehow explained away. The truth, the reality of the human condition is often cloaked behind a veil of New Age mumbo jumbo or a wall of psychobabble posing as scientific thought.

The simple fact remains the same. People sin everyday. There is no way to whitewash this fact. Sin can not be concealed or hidden. Sin exists whether we like it or not. We often sin accidentally, I believe this to be true especially in conversation.

I try various things to avoid sin. I pray. I try not to talk too much. I am part of a long line of talkers with a little too much curiosity and and a little too much obliquity. I sometimes pray for a little more common sense to help keep my tongue still.

I acknowledge that I am a sinner. I try to avoid sin, I try to avoid temptation. I am human. I have strengths and weaknesses. Sometimes I feel bad after I sin. Sometimes not, especially if it occurred during a great conversation filled with lots of laughter and jokes and anecdotes. Sin is a natural part of life for each and every human being. We have to accept this inevitability, this reality. We are asked to learn how to avoid sin.

As Catholics the sacraments help to put things into perspective. Every time we attend Mass we are encouraged to examine our lives, our decisions.

The meaning of our lives as Christians begins and ends with love and forgiveness. We are imperfect creatures striving for a perfect relationship with God.

I am a sinner trying to learn how to be righteous with prayer, reflection, silence, good deeds.

I am a sinner filling my life with goodness, kindness, holiness.

I am a sinner seeking righteousness, seeking God’s forgiveness.

Sin remains an equal opportunity distraction, diversion, temptation for all men, for all religions.

I pray for each and everyone of us to develop the strength to avoid sin, to live a life of fairness, a life of love, a life of social justice, a life of compassion, a life of mercy. I pray that we each find the strength of character to be like Jesus Christ in our daily lives.

a spirit of counsel and of strength - December 5, 2010

Allow yourself to cherish the Sabbath and attending Mass on the Sabbath. Allow this to be a day of charity, humility, and obedience.

Remember the half forgotten prayers of childhood, create some prayers with echoes from yesterday.

Within each prayer rests a portion of your youth, a dollop of all that which is good, kind, and holy within you

And so remember the comfort that prayer does offer

Each time you do acknowledge what you have done

Each momentary strength, momentary weakness

Each prayer does unlock childish memories of faith,

And of Easter, and of the greatest sacrifice you ever heard,

And of a candle-lighted Lent of abstinence and silence

Now, vivid, cinematic, asking me to discern.

Presenting faces of hope, faces of faith, faces of love; faces serving, faces following

Tragedy is the handmaid to all human beings

And yet, those who believe with their entire being

Will surely find salvation and eternal life with God.

I am thinking of a child's prayer now

Said proudly, happily before their father at mealtime.

Leading Us to Heaven

We must always remember that each step we make each day that we live is leading us to heaven. Our hearts and minds must always be directed toward this goal. God must always be our priority, the guiding power of our lives. Allow serving God to give your life meaning and direction. We must remember to attend Mass on Sundays and Days of Obligation; but that is not enough. We must do more. Our lives must be filled with hope and love. We must be concerned with fairness, social justice, human dignity of all people especially the poor.

Love can be transcendental. Hope can be transcendental.

Selfishness can lead to dissipation and despair. Jealousy can lead to stupefaction and moral lethargy.

Our theological development begins each time we go to Mass and continues when we return to the secular world. There might be quiet moments of self revelation and prayer once we leave the church. The circumstances and problems of our lives wait for our return; sometimes they are joined by all types of temptations. Sometimes we hesitate in sharing our love and our forgiveness.

Do not let this trouble you. Simply accept it and offer it to God. With patience and prayer your troubles will leave you. The road to goodness is difficult, requires diligence and sacrifice. Following Christ can be lonely at times. We may get lost within the solitude if our hearts and souls are not properly prepared for the pain and suffering of being a faithful, loving, humble servant of God.

Remember to always praise God, offer thanks to him. Call upon God for guidance and help. Pray to God often, sincerely, lovingly. Allow yourself only one luxury in this life: silence.

Antidote

--Pray when you wake-up. Live your life based upon fairness, social justice and love. Make time to both read and reflect upon each book of the Bible. Let the teachings of Jesus Christ inspire you to revolt against all evil and injustice. Live your life with joyous expectation. Have hunger only for God’s love and mercy. Open your soul up to the idea of and responsibility for your own discernment to listen for and to answer God’s call. Seek the style and beauty of goodness and holiness. Allow yourself to be conscious of each impression of gentleness, softness, of hopefulness, of prayers, of reflection, caressing, encouraging—an emphasis, calm yet confident, contemplative and passionate, with serenity and loving humility. Sense the greatness of God’s love; allow all your labors to be an opportunity to praise and give thanks to God. Do not be obstinate and seek only definitions and answers; instead be mindful of your anxiety and nourish your questions; allow them to grow, to expand, to contract over time; let your questions change and mature with time, with prayer, with reflection. Seek silence. Seek forgiveness. Be compassion. Be Love. Pray, pray, pray and pray again.

--Pray the Rosary at least once a week. Find good faith inspiring books for reading and reflection. Create a life of humility, obedience, and charity. Concentrate only on improving the best qualities of your life; the love within your heart, the hope within your soul should be your guide. Be conscious of the presence of God within your life. Always show respect to God. Always show reverence for God. Keep good company. Pray, pray, pray. Remember the virtues.

Let the impression of your life be filled with the humility, obedience, charity of God’s loving humble servant.

Do not fear austerity; simplicity allows us to find and share our love for God. Let love be the emphasis of your life with him. Be conscious of every impression of charity, obedience, humility. Examine your philosophy, your ideas of self and community. Where do you position serving God?

2010 Arrives

New Year’s Eve has departed,—These are my first hours of my life in movement, full of hope, full of faith but the impression of goodness and holiness I actually seek is very different from what I first imagined. 2010 has arrived.

I am in a state of great creative tension because of the unending march of answers and questions within my heart, mind, and soul. I lead the life of a calculus problem. I long to be a servant of God, to do what is needed without hesitation or question, I hope to live a life of complete obedience to God filled with effort and prayer, and destined eventually to please God as I proclaim his grace, goodness, and love through both my actions and words.

What I keep learning can be described simply as how to love and want nothing in return except to love more and to help more. It is the simplicity of silence and of prayer which moves me now.

And I am happy to be alive. And I am happy to be learning about the trinitarian, Christological, and ecclesiological foundations of the Church.

I am filled with hopes and prayers, and soon it will be time for Mass, the Archbishop will be the celebrant.

Now life is quiet, calm. The weather is cold yet magnificent, and all sounds peaceful and confident. I think of those who are sick or suffering or hungry or lost or without God in their hearts and I say a prayer, and I wish that there was something more immediate, more expedient that I could do to change the situation, make everyone feel better if only briefly. The spirit always searches for goodness, holiness.

Silence

Today, I have finished reading Saint Benedict’s Rule.

My mind is filled with thoughts avoiding pride and self-importance, increasing time spent in lectio divina, obedience, silence, humility. All are intertwined, all are important. Obedience and humility are easily pulled out as cornerstones of good Christian living.

Silence resonates within my mind as being essential for a good relationship with God. There must be a time when we are quiet, when our minds are no longer worrying about whether our boss will like a report, whether there will be a parking spot close to the building, whether reservations are needed at some restaurant, or whether to call someone after some long forgotten disagreement.

Although they may appear important at the time when we look at them through anxiety colored spectacles, a second examination often diminishes the importance. We confuse all types of things with importance: convenience, ambition, control.

Silence as we become acquainted with it and as we allow ourselves to trust it can become a powerful ally for us. Before we act there should be meditation and prayer. Before we speak there should be reflection and prayer. Before we speak or act there should always be a moment of silence.

On stage as an actor learns his/her lines, they also learn the beats, which includes the written dialogue and the pauses and silences. Learning the beats is often essential for interpreting the character and breathing life into the written words. The beats of a scene often make a character more human, provide glimpses into motivations, and punctuate what is important to either the character or author. Watch any television show, stage play, or movie and you will see beats; you will see moments when the characters stop talking and begin thinking.

There is nothing wrong with taking a moment to reflect on what we have either heard or observed. Our silence provides an opportunity to catalogue, analyze different situations. Our silence is a good time for prayer. How much better or lives would be if we prayed more often and said rude, inappropriate, and unacceptable things less.